ANOTHER ONE BITES THE DUST...

On the morning of Monday, December 20, 2010, at exactly 7:43am, while walking Oliver down Wilcox Ave. just south of Santa Monica Blvd, another body expires out of the El Nido Hotel. I could faintly make out the haze of a ghostly figure floating upwards over the ambulance, into the dark, wet sky. He seemed happy to be out of that body.

NEW PICS OF GOTHIC LOLITA, LA CARMINA & VISUAL KEI SUPERMODEL, YUKIRO!

Around a month ago, I had the honor of shooting, La Carmina(Gothic Lolita and superblogger) and her friend Yukiro(a visual Kei supermodel) at my studio, Ultrastar. Here are some of the fotos on La Carminas Blog. They were totally professional and awesome to shoot!
CHECK THEM OUT NOW.

http://www.lacarmina.com/blog/2010/04/military-fashion-show-apollo-star-goth-photography-la-carmina-fetish-visual-kei-photoshoot-in-hollywood-ca/

I can finally see a dim light, a few hundred feet ahead...

I hope it's not an oncoming train, like it usually is.

A trip to the Moon.

At exactly 7:19pm...
clack clack clack clack......
From inside my office I hear the footsteps of little black heels coming down the sidewalk.
They pass right in front of me, but I can see nothing.
They then pause for just a moment.
Soon follows the jangling of keys.
Quietly, A key makes its way into the slot and turns.
She's home.

It has been exactly one week(171 hours) from right now..

Utter Despair: depression and hopelessness, usually one that the person doesn't believe that he or she can recover from. Utter despair is sometimes when people give up, because they are down so far that they can't see any way back up. Utter just means the most extreme... so there can be utter bliss, as well as utter despair.
-WikiAnswers

There's a certain part of melancholic depression that nurtures the mind and feeds creativity, and can even turn into inspiration in the most extreme cases. This I have come to enjoy. But sometimes, when you're not looking, it will creep up on you, sting you, and cause extreme mental confusion/pain and sudden violent physical sickness that knows no bounds. This part I have not come to enjoy. But for the most part, I have developed a love/hate relationship with it. -a.s.