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Utter Despair: depression and hopelessness, usually one that the person doesn't believe that he or she can recover from. Utter despair is sometimes when people give up, because they are down so far that they can't see any way back up. Utter just means the most extreme... so there can be utter bliss, as well as utter despair.
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There's a certain part of melancholic depression that nurtures the mind and feeds creativity, and can even turn into inspiration in the most extreme cases. This I have come to enjoy. But sometimes, when you're not looking, it will creep up on you, sting you, and cause extreme mental confusion/pain and sudden violent physical sickness that knows no bounds. This part I have not come to enjoy. But for the most part, I have developed a love/hate relationship with it. -a.s.

When is a Raven like a Desk..?

Finally I was able to take a mini mental vacation and went to see Disney's 'Alice in Wonderland' in Imax 3d at midnight at Universal. There was one particular part that was completely out of place, kind of ridiculous and from what I would imagine, put into the film to give it a contemporary flavour to the youth generation. It was unforgiveable. Other than that I really liked the visuals. The Imax 3d was insane, but $18 bux a seat. This is when I don't feel bad stealing the saltshaker from the counter to continue salting my popcorn throughout the film. But I returned it after the movie..
Answer(not revealed in the film): Both were written on by Poe.