to remember me by...

Messy black hair in the eyes, supertight black jeans, Pointy black Chelsea boots, Black Leather jacket(always), hats, sunglasses, and a 1/2 ton of scarves....I wear this almost everyday. and I like Guns(but I'm NOT a conservative/Repub), Motorcycles, leather jackets, the Occult, Dark religion, indian incense(the hardcore stuff), and 60s & 70s B-movies, and just cool stuff I guess. I have no tolerance for underage poseurs(you know who you are). I need to surround myself with POSITIVE people that are actually doing stuff, have good attitudes and are truly talented in SOMETHING....I can't stand Hollywood types that are too cool for school, do nothing and are self important. I lived that life for years when I was seduced by the the club scene years ago and am SO DONE WITH IT AND OVER IT. I like reality and nice people who are genuine and cool.

I'm not a 'bar guy', in fact I cannot stand ignorant club people(no offense to the handful of close people that I have met in the last 10 years) and that whole bar/club scene, it just began years ago when I was asked by club owners to put on nights at their spaces, probably because of all the creative crazies that I used to hang out with back then that used to convene by the masses. little did I know, it would turn into a 10 year long journey and descent into the darkness of drugs, alcohol and creativity. Fortunately I survived that world. Slightly scathed.

"I don't have inner demons...I hold hands with the Devil every nite...and am at the mercy of the gates of the Afterlife every time I close my eyes."

I currently live in a Loft/Art Studio known as ULTRASTAR that doubles as my photo studio and Gallery. Recently I have become somewhat of a RECLUSE....as I rarely ever leave my studio anymore. I mostly stay in my compound and work and paint and shoot, far into the night, and have visitors over occasionally for high tea. I am much happier these days just being home at my studio than going out. I'm always looking to meet cool new people that are visually interesting, to shoot.

I've been part of and seen the ugly side of LA clubs for far too long and am now starting to live a 'real' life that includes travel, museums, international food and non-club people. I have met some cool people, and I have amazing stories for days, enough to write a book or two, but mostly its been late late nights, drinking, and basically a life of pure indulgences that make it difficult to see the world the way it really is. If you let it, the nightclub world will change the way you see things, permanently. Not in a good way either. You live in this fantasy world where everyone thinks they look their best and are in the best mood ever because of booze or drugs and feel good...and they're trying to impress everyone cuz they don't want to go home alone. THATS NOT REALITY. thats called Fantasy(yours). and when that becomes your life/work, it just isn't that fun or self-fulfilling anymore. I am now making a conscious change to have a healthy and spiritual lifestyle.

I paint giant bar codes, collect vintage porn, but I don't really do anything besides collect it...I don't really look at it, only to steal poses from the fotos, but mainly it just sits there on my bookshelf, stacked vertically, one after another....I guess thats a true collector....I mean we just collect it and let it sit there. I have a passion for the underground and non-mainstream anything. I love pop-culture, fashion, music and the lifestyles of the 60s and 70s. I absolutely HATE living in the ideology of today. I hate the trends, the young people, and the media, which has systematically RUINED Everything that was cool by making it a commodity and turning the Nation into TV Zombies. I LOVE late 70s NY and UK PuNk and the nihilistic attitude that shaped that genre. and furthermore I love that sleazy 70s DISCO lifestyle of pure indulgences and excesses. and that period of music in 1980 when disco transitioned into New Wave and all the music that is half disco and half electro and half New Wave with Vocoder.

I am a very positive person and always see the bright side of things(of course I can be a jaded sacastic bitch too...but that's just the Yin and Yang of life) I would love to be a positive influence on people and inspire them in any way, especially creative. I am an ex-fashion designer and used to own a 60s MOD Boutique with my partner Mers, at my loft space, called LE CHIC Boutique. It was pretty cool back then, now every stupid trendster thinks they're a fashion designer because they design Stupid Graphics for T-Shirts.

FAVOURITE PASTIME: Currently, I am thouroughly entertained by standing outside the Burgundy Room, when I go to work as a DJ on Thursdays, and watching all the pathetic insecure RETARDS wait in line for hours, outside of GOA(the so-called 'celebrity' club next door)just to try to get the acceptance and OK from some uneducated Gorilla bouncer list guy to be let into a place where you are RAPED for drink prices and the only game in town is loud mouthed, spoiled, elementary minded, rhinoplasty disaster, donald duck billed bimbos that feel 'special' if they get attention from even the homeless guy begging for change outside of Grecos pizza on the corner. Their Pathetic predictable behaviour is OUR ENTERTAINMENT. Yay! I wouldn't have it any other way.

UPDATE: GOA closed like 5 months ago because they were doing illegal and shady shit. Now I just look at the homeless bums outside who asks for cigarettes.

ON OTHERS BEING INTERNET WHORES/MYSPACE CELEBRITIES: Do you really feel better and more confidant about yourself by having a legion of underage tweens and a sea of ingnorant followers, worship and idolize you? Do you really believe that you have more power by having more people(insignificant as they are) admire and adore you? Does it make you sleep better at night knowing that you got 100 new comments today from from wannabes who think that My Chemical Romance is Punk Rock? If thats all it takes, more power to you. We need your type to exist just to make us more credible. and we Thank You.-A.Staar